My collegues are running a marathon , who gets a better job next, who marries next, who goes abroad next, I'm too tired to be part of it. But every posts, every call they make to share their success I feel happy for them, but also pressurized about being a part of this marathon. Indians are so weird, from the mothers womb the competition might have started, will the child be a boy or girl, normal or c section, where will she / he join cbse, icse or state, whats his/ her percentage be in 10th and 12th, which college to join, is he/she following his/her faith properly, will they ever fall in love with someone from another caste, will they get campus placements, will they get married before 25, will she be able to do household chores and still work, if its a guy will he have bad habits ? Will he look after his wife properly? Will they have healthy kids? And so the thought process goes. But nobody thinks " are they happy? Are they feeling good? Is it too much pressure ? "....Sorry, I understood the questions but I am not writing this exam. I am not running this marathon. I dont want to be a part of this.Well, everyday its the same thought I am not good enough for my parents, I am not good enough for partner/ friends/ collegues / society / workspace.
Just break the chain! Break the chain of expectations, of overthinking , of fulfilling others dreams, of working your ass off and feeling like shit, of giving your dreams a back seat, of being the black sheep or the bad-luck, and just be you. You are just perfect and eligible to be you, no other eligibility required, no other boxes to be checked !
PS : Take yourself on dates , dont wait someone to do it !!! 😄 ( speaking of dates, we need a job to take ourselves on a date, so dont quit if you are frustrated until you have planned out another source of income ! )
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