Chapter 1
There was no plans of having a relationship as the previous one was a flop show with a family friend. The days felt like years, the same things where I find time was moving slowly slowly and very slowly. Friends proved that time that I spend in college was worthy. It was our last year in college , we already lost many of our celebrations due to the famous college fights which was going on between two branches. One was our batch and the other the batch of mechanical students. And these fights and the politics inside the campus proved that it was a campus otherwise it would look more like a school rather than college.It was the early days of our project and we as usual approached some companies to do projects for us so that we could present something when the time comes.
So we the brilliant students of our school-like-college, a batch of four members I myself Adya,Preetha,Shubha and Nithara set out on a journey with some money and a set of a few company names where we could do our project. The first company was found out by Preetha. We went there at around 10 am and was sitting in the reception when the three girls were having a quiet chat and laughter while I was the odd one checking my watsapp as usual.I enquired them what happened and they said "The project co-ordinator looks handsome."
"Oh!....em...really?" I asked.
"As I expected, like his sound he looks handsome."said preetha.
"Oops! did I miss something?"I asked.
"As usual!"said Nithara.
We were a very noisy batch among the students and after a fair amount of time spent on the reception sofa, we were called to the 1st floor of the building, Where for the first time I met a tall big man.For the time being I am calling him Mr.Big.Yes!! he was too huge to be described. The girls quietly described about him within themselves. I was the one who was talking about the project with him and another developer who was present with him. He seemed nice,but I felt he was a flirt at first who could impress small girls with his special talent of charming dialogue delivery. I found him looking at me , and I thought maybe because I was the only one who spoke a bit more than the other girls.And after the discussion with him as we were about to go he stood up opened the door like a true gentleman. I know that was a quiet flattering site,yet! it was worth a description.
He was taller than I expected, and I was so scared of huge men maybe because of my height. I was on the ground floor and he was on the top most floor if our heights were compared.
As we got out of the company , the girls began to talk about him and overall they liked his appearance as well as his talks as for me I was so confused to categorise him into any of the sweet, cute, flirty tags yet he was quiet huge. And finally, we were more than flattered by his hospitality or flirty approach as I say and was impressed with the company and planned to do our project there.
Chapter 2
But then things took a strange turn when some of our senior batch people said that the projects one there were not up to the mark last year. So we were confused about doing our project there. One day I took his number from Preetha as she insisted and asked him the progress of our project when he replied "Yeah, I have mailed some papers to preetha. Check it out!". As he was talking more with Preetha, I was in no mood to talk with him much regarding our project. But then one day he called us while we were outside our college taking copies of some notes. He called in Preetha's phone and I asked her to put the call in speaker mode. He talked to her about the project and asked her about me for the first time"Hey a girl called me named Adya".
Then I found him nice by the gentle way he talked and asked her to give me the phone and talked with him about the project. He was very friendly and then I too became friendly with him
. That was the starting with the stranger Mr.Big. Later Preetha told me that his name was Jake and I started to talk with him about the project but later my friends found out the reason for our seniors not doing project in his company was because there were some bad word which came inside the code they developed due to which our seniors lost their marks. So my friends decided not to do our projects there.
He had told me the truth then and I said it was ok and we will not make the issue big and he said that I had a very good character. But he was sad that we didn't do our project there. I said sorry and he said it was ok and again remarked I had a very good character.Since he said the truth I was so impressed with him and I appreciated him for sharing me the truth with him and he said its because I was friendly with him.
Chapter 3
He suddenly asked about my whereabouts and I replied frankly and briefly about me. Then I asked him about him and he slowly opened up.Then we started to share an online friendship.
He was charming and sounded genuine and I was impressed by his words frankly speaking. Then he asked me if I had any relationship when I said my friends have and then I said no.He asked me why and I said I had no interest right now and then he said that romance was a good feeling and I thought he had a girlfriend and asked him. He said "No. I didn't have time for a relation till now." This time it was hard to digest yet I said "Oh, I just asked because you were supporting love." And he said "No,, I was not supporting love it is true." and then I said "Ok, maybe!".
Then one evening he suddenly came and asked would you be my friend? How can I deny, he was too good to be a friend. A very cool person who never kept a grudge on the students who never did their project in his company.I said yes we can. Then he immediately send his number and said he would text me as the number we were talking through was his business account and he said if he leaves then my number would be saved in this watsapp which another person could misuse. And he also added "I like to keep my friendship private."
So I texted him first saying"I have saved your number" to which he replied as soon as he came. As we talked he said "We are too different dear!" to which I said"It depends on us how well we maintain our relations , as each people is unique." to which he again said "You are too good."Then as we talked more and more he started to show some kind of interest in me as he frequently texted me and all he asked me was about my concept about my life partner to which I kept on saying "Character" is important.He too agreed to that.Then he asked me if I liked guys who smoke and drink to which I said "Smoking..No but drinking is tolerable to an extend!" to which he seemed happy.
Chapter 4
As the days went slower and slower his attraction towards me was increasing at a faster rate which made me scared,special and surprised.But I thought it was an infatuation just like how other guys propose me.So I kept ignoring whatever he said.He remarked again that any guy who marries me would be really lucky to have me and that he was not the one. This made me feel a little weird, I didn't know why he said such a sentence when he had only seen me once and little did e knew about me. I thought that he was too excited to be with a woman as he said that he never had an affair previously.
But as the days went by his attraction was like a tight hug from a very big man from which I could hardly breathe. And he kept on saying "I am so addicted to you.You are mine!! mine alone!!"These words made me feel weird at first. My friends insisted me to remain as his friend as he was behaving like a psychopath.But then as he was too intense and as he showed in his actions and in his words I could feel how lucky he was to have me. I never felt it like acting or fake as he was too insane about me in his actions.So finally I went and asked him if he meant it really to which he immediately said yes. And asked me if I loved him to which I asked him another question"Do you?". He said "I think so!".So we started a relationship.Little did I know about him but the way he made me feel special was beyond my most fantasy imaginations.
But all my friends was against it.They never talked to me much about him.They were concerned about me alot and told me what if he too proved worthless you would lose your mental peace.Yes, I knew that was true but I couldn't obey my mind as my heart was feeling clingy towards him.He was making me feel special and I always wanted that in my life.I wanted the same comfort, the same lust and the same feeling from a man since a very long time as all my friends were enjoying such a life and I had a very boring single life.
Chapter 5
From the very next moment we entered into a relation I was in a fantasy world. He proved worthy and I felt like I found my prince charming, my man . I was on top of the world but then slowly slowly he said he was busy and couldn't spend much time with me but he never forgot to say I love you on a daily basis.That was what he could do to this relation , to make me fall for him completely and keep me there thinking about him.But he had told me clearly that he could only marry at the age of 29 and till then I had to wait as he had a sister who was also in an affair so she had to be married first and then he had to renovate his house and finally be in a stable position to marry me. To which I gladly said ok as he was a family man.
I was being a generous woman everyone said , but as for me he was being so sweet enough to marry me just the way I am without expecting anything from me.As we were sharing our most lovable moments together, my grandmother asked me to show his picture.So I took facebook and search for his pictures to find some pictures but as I was going through his instagram I saw a post where he shared some sweet conversation with a woman in public which distracted me a lot. I was thinking if I should ask him or not and finally I mustered up all courage and asked him about her. He got too angry and said "See you are having alot of doubt.How will this work??" I got so scared and said "No baby! its not like that I was just asking if you had any previous relationship.We can always openly talk right?" He was angry and didn't say a word and completely cut me out for a day.I didn't know what to do tears rolled down my cheek and I started to think some hopes which I had as I started the relation is now all over. We may stop this dating and also I phoned my best friend Keerthana and shared the matter with her.She advised me to break up with him if he is not ready to open up.As we were complete strangers we had to put extra effort to know each other and I was doing the same thing to which he didn't give accurate answers.
Chapter 6
He cut me out for almost 2 days at that time I was thinking of a break up with him. Because he was behaving like a psycho, I have seen many men but not a person who had so much of anger within him.But then as I was going to close the chapter he texted me saying "Hey! Are you angry?" to which I had no answer and he added "I had previously told you I was on a trip so that's why I didn't reply ok don't feel bad." to my surprise he was normal and also extra sweet he made me feel like as though I taking a rose petal shower and floating in his sweet words at the same time. He was making me feel needed, lusted and loved all at once.
We chatted for long hours during his busy schedule and my studies and projects and shit. I would come back from college throw my shoes and bag , wash my face and switch on my wifi and laptop to chat with him. It was so much fun at the thought of running home as early as possible and sitting with him.
My days with him felt like years connection and I felt that he was born for me and I was born for him.He made sure that he was insanely in love with me and which made me feel like a queen.
Things went on so dramatical each moment he comes online he would shower me with his kisses and words of love and would baptise me into a woman from a child within a matter of seconds and then take me to a far away land where we are the only people living.I felt loved and cared and I got a suddenly feeling in my brain that this was it.He made me feel that way special and special and special always and I suddenly felt I was the most hottest and cutest woman on the earth.So I started to trust him and believe him more and was devoted towards his passion towards me.When he passionately loved me I was going crazy.
Chapter 7
26th beautiful day of our romance was the most memorable one when he told a lot of times that he loved me. He kissed me like there was no tomorrow and I was feeling so happy as there were only four more days to become a month and then he had previously said that he would make our relation public and I was waiting for that. He also showed love towards my inner child which made me so happy and timely said how cute I looked.So the 26th day was the most beautiful of all days but little did I know it was just nothing but the storm which was going to stop into nothingness. That night I send him my saree pictures and was waiting for his comments.He came online but he didn't open my chat, I didn't find anything unusual as he was always busy.But the next day too morning he came but ignored me and went off. I was waiting for him from morning even after I had exams the next day. Yet he did not come.At 12 noon he came and said "Adya, don't call me anymore please, this will not happen."
I was shocked and the moment I saw it I burst into tears and my whole body broke into pieces and I could feel the ache all over.He was my soul and he is leaving me? I asked him the reason camly still with hopes as i thought it might be his work pressure and called him three times even after he said don't call me but he didn't pick it up.Then I called my home and asked my mom if she said anything to him to stop our relation but she was calm and said no and asked me back a question do you expect me to do that now? I f I didn't like I could have said it earlier when he called me. I too thought "Yeah that was true!".It was not my mom because she loved me and considered my happiness more than hers. I was valuable to her.Then my granny after seeing me cry phoned him but by then his phone was switched off. I told her stop calling him , he purposely switched off his phones so he need not have to answer me.
She again called him one more time and then stopped. I send a message to his phone"God will not forget the sin you committed towards a woman of making her emotionally so torn.It's not hurting a woman physically but mentally that will bleed her all her life."When he called me and said 'I can't continue anymore , I never expected we would become so attached but unfortunately we are.But I can't now." I was in tears but asked him boldly" I will not call you again but you should tell me the reason ."and he said 'My mom found an alliance for me and I have to get married to that girl so please.." and I asked 'So you didn't have the courage to speak up about us?" to which he said "My mom is the one who looked after me all these 24 years, I cannot leave her for anyone else.I want my family!!"
"Then what about me?" I asked. He cut the call. I texted him in watsapp ok i will not call you or talk to you again but I have loved you truly but you are the reason for that. I was not the one who came behind you. You were the one who came behind me and promised me that you will not leave and now after promising me that you will marry me you left me. And then i blocked him. He too blocked me after reading the message.
After that I found that I was losing my grip and I was feeling tired and I wanted my days back and texted him in his office number through which we started chatting saying "It was you who came and I was not the one. But after you talked with my mom I too had started to love you and my love was increasing day by day and now I am scared of losing you. My pride or anger should not win but our love should win. So tell me the real reason why you left and not the marriage reason as no man will marry at 24 not the person who said he had so many responsibilities before marrying and could only possibly marry at 29." After reading he silently blocked me.Then I too blocked him and thought maybe this is like any other story which is only a lesson and not a treasure. Here I am gaining only some knowledge of how to be with people outside.The devil behind the angel, the sour behind the sweet, the darkness behind the light and the emptiness behind the fullness. yes, it was another lesson.But I was not ready to stop myself, I was moving ahead as I too had a family to love and a life to live and ambitions to be achieved.